Meander

I haven't been writing - there has been too much going on in my real life for me to devote any to this online life of mine. Work has been incredible - both highs and lows - there's a lot i can't even talk about here. I don't want to divulge too much about where i work - or the details of my job. I can talk about deals and international conference calls and making my way toward the promotion to director - but other than that - i'm pretty silent. So, lots of highs and lows. It's been interesting. The insomnia is back - because of all the pressure - but when i can't sleep i call rich and his voice lulls me back to sleep. Slowly. I mean honestly, i can't complain - i'm really lucky. Despite the pressure, i have an amazing job. I have my health, my family is incredible, supportive, close. I have wonderful friends and fulfill my soul with charity and philanthropy. I'm lucky. I don't have a lot to complain about - yet i'm unsettled and restless and wandering and searching. For what i don't know. But i can feel it.

I'm heading to NY tuesday morning to spend some very needed time with rich. 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to just being in his space - to be able to reach out and hold his hand - see his green eyes - run my fingers through the loose curl of his hair. His laugh. I'm looking forward to the every day. I'm looking forward to us.

I'll try to update from NY - i'm sure i'll be able to. Until then, be well and sorry for such an odd, somewhat detached post. I'll make the next one a little lighter...

Meow - K