I was thinking the other day - about 'moments' - you know - when you're lucky enough to actually catch yourself having a moment - when you have the ability to step outside yourself and observe the moment as it is happening...
Say you're sitting in Central Park - beautiful day - sun shining - kids playing - people strolling about - and you're on a comfy blanket - reading your favorite book - you've read it too many times to count - but you love it - the worn, dog-eared pages, the way the hard back feels in your hands - and you're immersed - taken - deep inside the story...and something pulls you away - and you look up - and you hear the dogs barking - and the children laughing - the people talking - the wind softly moving the leaves - you can feel the sun on your skin - the warmth - and you sit there - and take it all in - and realize - this is why i'm here - moments like these - moments when you realize how wonderful things really are - and how it only takes the smallest thing to bring us back to that...
Rich is my moment - i was immersed in a great book when i met him - happily living my life - but he lifted my head - and made me see again how wonderful things truly are.
K
Friday, February 25, 2005
Thursday, February 24, 2005
New York recap...entirely too much fun!
So i have a few moments of down time - and i'm going to try and recap our amazing weekend in NY...
I arrived thursday - late afternoon - made my way to the W hotel and checked into my suite. I called Rich to let him know my room and that there was a key waiting for him at the front desk - i also called my dear friend Matt who was in town with his boyfriend Jeremy (who i hadn't met) - to let them know i had landed and was ready for a cocktail. Matt and Jeremy met me in my room - and after i freshened up, we made our way down to the bar - it was too crowded so we wound up at the hotel across the street in their nearly empty lounge enjoying a glass of wine and eachother's company. 2 glasses of wine later - with their reservation at Cafe Des Artistes looming over us - Matt and Jeremy make their way into the night and i head back to the W.
I knew Rich was coming over soon - so i freshened up again - turned on some music - lit some candles and relaxed. It was perfect when he arrived - it was as if we hadn't missed a day - the comfort level - the easiness of 'us' - the strong attraction...nothing had changed. Fabulous! He had some Valentine's presents for me - and we exchanged gifts (i gave him a crocodile cuff link case with a pair of burberry cufflinks and he gave me an assortment of darling gifts including the dvd of my favorite movie "fall" - a book of stories - and some other things i can't mention here...) . I couldn't stop touching him - making sure he was really in front of me - peppering him with little kisses... i've missed him so much. We had plans to go to dinner - but after 2 glasses of wine - a long flight and the emotional anticipation of seeing him again - i was drained - and tired - and given that he had a very long week as well - we decided to stay in - order room service and 'catch up'...
Friday morning we get up - get ready - he heads to his office - i to mine - awesome building - amazing view - and it was great to finally meet the people i've been working over the phone/email with for the past 6 months. I worked until about 2:30 - then taxied to rich's office to meet him and his sister for lunch. Lunch was great - seeing his sister was even better (she's a doll) - we all caught up and then shared a taxi uptown. We stopped at rich's for something then headed back to the W - 'napped' for a bit - meow - and then got ready to meet matt and jeremy for dinner at Pastis in the meat packing district. Rush rush rush - i'm finally ready (sexy black suit - high D&G stiletto's) - and we all taxi to the restaurant for out 9pm reservation...had to pull some strings - called and told them a VIP was coming in and got us a table (phew) - the place was packed with all the beautiful people - handsome boys - chic girls - lots of eye contact - very very fun. Dinner was amazing - had a great time with matt & jeremy (they both loved rich) - have the onion soup - omg - completely decadent - so fabulous to catch up with matt - and i thought jeremy was awesome - he's from london - darling darling guy. Dinner ended around 12:30...it was freezing outside and we decided not to go have cocktails as we were all quite tired at this point...so we dropped them off at their hotel and made our way back to the W.
Saturday was great - we slept in and then made our way down to SoHo - shopped along Broadway - Mercer - Spring - etc - hit Aldo (bought the sexiest shoes) - Louis Vuitton - Mont Blanc - Lounge and others and stopped for a delicious and 'see and be seen' lunch at Mercer Kitchen - yum...2 glasses of wine and many shops later we hopped into a cab and made our way back to the hotel close to 6:30. We actually napped this time - and when we woke to go to a party - i wasn't feeling well - i think it was a mussel from Pastis - and i didn't feel well enough to go out...we ended up ordering in - watching Fall (so amazing) - and playing until the wee hours of the morning...
Sunday was brunch with friends (after checking out of the hotel) - and then off to Eli's to pick up dessert (chocolate decadence and cheesecake along with cookies) for dinner at rich's parent's. His sister and her boyfriend (nice guy - funny) picked us up and we made our way to New Jersey. I was nervous but rich held my hand and that made everything better...it's the little things. I met his mom first - darling - adorable - chic - and then his dad - sweet and funny. The day was relaxed - we hung out - watched home movies (hysterical) - and then sat down for a lovely dinner. The desserts were a hit - and i felt very much at home. I can absolutely see our parents getting along well - they're very similar - and i know it won't be an issue. Rich's aunt and uncle along with his nephew were also there - rich played his guitar for his nephew who is just starting to take lessons - and everyone had a great time. It really was such fun - i'm looking forward to going back. It started to snow and the four of us headed back to NY after saying our goodbye's. Once we got home - rich and i just relaxed...
Monday came along with 4 inches of snow from sunday night - it was so beautiful! We lounged around for a bit and then made our way to Madison - to have lunch at Serafina - delicious. Window shopped for a bit - bought a 'throw away' camera and headed - all bundled up - to Central Park and the Gates. It was amazing. Gorgeous. The contrast of the stark white snow with the bright orange gates made for a really beautiful exhibit...i'm so happy we went. The park was packed with people - most with cameras (or sleds) - dogs chasing snow balls - kids sledding and building snow men - couples cozying up next to eachother for warmth - it was picturesque - truly...We took the entire role of the Gates - with i think 3 of us in the pictures. We spent a little over an hour in the park and then made our way over to the Met - but decided instead to go to Bergdorf Goodman's - i needed my shopping fix - it's my favorite store and i had to go. We made our way through the floors - looking at all the beautiful things - and then stopped and perused the home collection - passed on the sterling dipped sea shells - but i think i'll get them next time...next we headed to Takashimaya - where i purchased a darling bear for sammy and a sweet little bunny for cole - we made our way through the floors there too - and then headed out - gucci - dior - fendi - louis vuitton - god i love 5th ave - but i was SO good and only spent money on others...nothing decadent for me. Damn. We ended up at a cigar store - almost bought a pretty (tiny porcelain) versace ashtray with an ocean motif to use as a ring holder - but passed - and then we made our way back to rich's. We had reservations at Balthazar - it's always amazing - had to have the onion soup - rich had the escargot (delicious) - and then i had the turbot while rich had a wonderful duck confit...a split of a french red wine and dinner couldn't have been better...star sighting - helena bohnam carter and tim burton sat 2 tables to our left - she's a quirky little thing - but her eyes are just as big and expressive as they are on screen - and her skin - so beautiful. Taxi to rich's with a naughty restaurant tour on our way back - and we fell into bed - sated and tired and ensconced in eachother's arms.
Tuesday - rich got up and headed to work - i checked email and voicemail from his house - and then made my way back to Soho - a few purchases later i'm waiting for rich - we meet up - and head uptown to Dylan's candy bar. A few more purchases - lunch at a french brasseriere and then back to the W to pick up a darling book for Sammy...We make our way back to his apartment where i'm tasked with fitting all my purchases into my suitcase (note to self - buy bigger suitcase) - after moving several things around - and leaving a few things behind for rich to ship to me - i'm basically packed and ready to go. The sadness is setting in - and i'm a little weepy. I don't want to leave and i'm contemplating calling and extending my trip - but i know doing that will just delay the inevitable - going home. My flight is at 6 and we hail a cab around 4:30...long kisses goodbye and hugs and a few tears are the way we leave things...my hand pressed against the back window - waving - is my final goodbye as we turn on to the FDR. I don't think i waited 2 minutes before i fished my phone out of my bag and called him - wanting to hear his voice again - missing him already - terribly.
I barely made my flight - traffic and long lines at security - but when we took off - i popped in the CD he made me for my flight home - so many of my favorite songs - so many that remind me of us...a few more tears - god i hate tearing up and crying in public so i pushed them away and listened to the CD for the entire flight. I called him as soon as i land - letting him know i've arrived - he knew already as he'd been tracking my flight on the internet...i then called my parents to let them know i was home. I went to bed - alone - in my apartment which seemed incredibly empty. This is so tough...
At work yesterday he sent me the most beautiful bouquet of roses - and the loveliest card to go along with them... i'm so lucky. He's amazing. An hour doesn't go by without my thinking of him - smiling - laughing - knowing how perfect we are for eachother. The weekend couldn't have been better -it was fabulous - it was wonderful - it was amazing and i can't wait to go back...
K
I arrived thursday - late afternoon - made my way to the W hotel and checked into my suite. I called Rich to let him know my room and that there was a key waiting for him at the front desk - i also called my dear friend Matt who was in town with his boyfriend Jeremy (who i hadn't met) - to let them know i had landed and was ready for a cocktail. Matt and Jeremy met me in my room - and after i freshened up, we made our way down to the bar - it was too crowded so we wound up at the hotel across the street in their nearly empty lounge enjoying a glass of wine and eachother's company. 2 glasses of wine later - with their reservation at Cafe Des Artistes looming over us - Matt and Jeremy make their way into the night and i head back to the W.
I knew Rich was coming over soon - so i freshened up again - turned on some music - lit some candles and relaxed. It was perfect when he arrived - it was as if we hadn't missed a day - the comfort level - the easiness of 'us' - the strong attraction...nothing had changed. Fabulous! He had some Valentine's presents for me - and we exchanged gifts (i gave him a crocodile cuff link case with a pair of burberry cufflinks and he gave me an assortment of darling gifts including the dvd of my favorite movie "fall" - a book of stories - and some other things i can't mention here...) . I couldn't stop touching him - making sure he was really in front of me - peppering him with little kisses... i've missed him so much. We had plans to go to dinner - but after 2 glasses of wine - a long flight and the emotional anticipation of seeing him again - i was drained - and tired - and given that he had a very long week as well - we decided to stay in - order room service and 'catch up'...
Friday morning we get up - get ready - he heads to his office - i to mine - awesome building - amazing view - and it was great to finally meet the people i've been working over the phone/email with for the past 6 months. I worked until about 2:30 - then taxied to rich's office to meet him and his sister for lunch. Lunch was great - seeing his sister was even better (she's a doll) - we all caught up and then shared a taxi uptown. We stopped at rich's for something then headed back to the W - 'napped' for a bit - meow - and then got ready to meet matt and jeremy for dinner at Pastis in the meat packing district. Rush rush rush - i'm finally ready (sexy black suit - high D&G stiletto's) - and we all taxi to the restaurant for out 9pm reservation...had to pull some strings - called and told them a VIP was coming in and got us a table (phew) - the place was packed with all the beautiful people - handsome boys - chic girls - lots of eye contact - very very fun. Dinner was amazing - had a great time with matt & jeremy (they both loved rich) - have the onion soup - omg - completely decadent - so fabulous to catch up with matt - and i thought jeremy was awesome - he's from london - darling darling guy. Dinner ended around 12:30...it was freezing outside and we decided not to go have cocktails as we were all quite tired at this point...so we dropped them off at their hotel and made our way back to the W.
Saturday was great - we slept in and then made our way down to SoHo - shopped along Broadway - Mercer - Spring - etc - hit Aldo (bought the sexiest shoes) - Louis Vuitton - Mont Blanc - Lounge and others and stopped for a delicious and 'see and be seen' lunch at Mercer Kitchen - yum...2 glasses of wine and many shops later we hopped into a cab and made our way back to the hotel close to 6:30. We actually napped this time - and when we woke to go to a party - i wasn't feeling well - i think it was a mussel from Pastis - and i didn't feel well enough to go out...we ended up ordering in - watching Fall (so amazing) - and playing until the wee hours of the morning...
Sunday was brunch with friends (after checking out of the hotel) - and then off to Eli's to pick up dessert (chocolate decadence and cheesecake along with cookies) for dinner at rich's parent's. His sister and her boyfriend (nice guy - funny) picked us up and we made our way to New Jersey. I was nervous but rich held my hand and that made everything better...it's the little things. I met his mom first - darling - adorable - chic - and then his dad - sweet and funny. The day was relaxed - we hung out - watched home movies (hysterical) - and then sat down for a lovely dinner. The desserts were a hit - and i felt very much at home. I can absolutely see our parents getting along well - they're very similar - and i know it won't be an issue. Rich's aunt and uncle along with his nephew were also there - rich played his guitar for his nephew who is just starting to take lessons - and everyone had a great time. It really was such fun - i'm looking forward to going back. It started to snow and the four of us headed back to NY after saying our goodbye's. Once we got home - rich and i just relaxed...
Monday came along with 4 inches of snow from sunday night - it was so beautiful! We lounged around for a bit and then made our way to Madison - to have lunch at Serafina - delicious. Window shopped for a bit - bought a 'throw away' camera and headed - all bundled up - to Central Park and the Gates. It was amazing. Gorgeous. The contrast of the stark white snow with the bright orange gates made for a really beautiful exhibit...i'm so happy we went. The park was packed with people - most with cameras (or sleds) - dogs chasing snow balls - kids sledding and building snow men - couples cozying up next to eachother for warmth - it was picturesque - truly...We took the entire role of the Gates - with i think 3 of us in the pictures. We spent a little over an hour in the park and then made our way over to the Met - but decided instead to go to Bergdorf Goodman's - i needed my shopping fix - it's my favorite store and i had to go. We made our way through the floors - looking at all the beautiful things - and then stopped and perused the home collection - passed on the sterling dipped sea shells - but i think i'll get them next time...next we headed to Takashimaya - where i purchased a darling bear for sammy and a sweet little bunny for cole - we made our way through the floors there too - and then headed out - gucci - dior - fendi - louis vuitton - god i love 5th ave - but i was SO good and only spent money on others...nothing decadent for me. Damn. We ended up at a cigar store - almost bought a pretty (tiny porcelain) versace ashtray with an ocean motif to use as a ring holder - but passed - and then we made our way back to rich's. We had reservations at Balthazar - it's always amazing - had to have the onion soup - rich had the escargot (delicious) - and then i had the turbot while rich had a wonderful duck confit...a split of a french red wine and dinner couldn't have been better...star sighting - helena bohnam carter and tim burton sat 2 tables to our left - she's a quirky little thing - but her eyes are just as big and expressive as they are on screen - and her skin - so beautiful. Taxi to rich's with a naughty restaurant tour on our way back - and we fell into bed - sated and tired and ensconced in eachother's arms.
Tuesday - rich got up and headed to work - i checked email and voicemail from his house - and then made my way back to Soho - a few purchases later i'm waiting for rich - we meet up - and head uptown to Dylan's candy bar. A few more purchases - lunch at a french brasseriere and then back to the W to pick up a darling book for Sammy...We make our way back to his apartment where i'm tasked with fitting all my purchases into my suitcase (note to self - buy bigger suitcase) - after moving several things around - and leaving a few things behind for rich to ship to me - i'm basically packed and ready to go. The sadness is setting in - and i'm a little weepy. I don't want to leave and i'm contemplating calling and extending my trip - but i know doing that will just delay the inevitable - going home. My flight is at 6 and we hail a cab around 4:30...long kisses goodbye and hugs and a few tears are the way we leave things...my hand pressed against the back window - waving - is my final goodbye as we turn on to the FDR. I don't think i waited 2 minutes before i fished my phone out of my bag and called him - wanting to hear his voice again - missing him already - terribly.
I barely made my flight - traffic and long lines at security - but when we took off - i popped in the CD he made me for my flight home - so many of my favorite songs - so many that remind me of us...a few more tears - god i hate tearing up and crying in public so i pushed them away and listened to the CD for the entire flight. I called him as soon as i land - letting him know i've arrived - he knew already as he'd been tracking my flight on the internet...i then called my parents to let them know i was home. I went to bed - alone - in my apartment which seemed incredibly empty. This is so tough...
At work yesterday he sent me the most beautiful bouquet of roses - and the loveliest card to go along with them... i'm so lucky. He's amazing. An hour doesn't go by without my thinking of him - smiling - laughing - knowing how perfect we are for eachother. The weekend couldn't have been better -it was fabulous - it was wonderful - it was amazing and i can't wait to go back...
K
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Tinier update
I'm exhausted - i'll write more later - incredible weekend - had absolutely the best time - saw the Gates - shopped 5th and Madison and Soho - great dinners/drinks with friends...lots to tell - but i'm slammed with work and i'm terribly tired.
I miss rich.
K
I miss rich.
K
Thursday, February 17, 2005
New York
I LOVE NY!! I'm here - it's fabulous - drinks with friends tonight and then rich and i get some well deserved and needed quiet time alone...work part of the day tomorrow - out for dinner tomorrow night and the rest of the weekend is packed as well...will report back later. Must go - rich is coming over soon and i need to freshen up...
Meow - K
Meow - K
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Tiny Update
I don't have a lot of time to write - incredibly busy with work - trying to get much done before i leave for NY thursday AM - but - must note that i got the most beautiful bouquet of tulips from rich for valentine's day (and a little something else...meow) - they are bright red, cantaloupe and deep pink - stunning. Too many to count - absolutely beautiful...
It was a great day - of course i wish we could have been together - however we will be when i arrive - so looking forward to spending the time with him. Can't wait!
Oh - and I'm definitely going to see the Christo installation in Central Park - that should be amazing. And yes - it's not that exciting - but i think it's the whole idea of going - experiencing the exhibit with everyone else - that's the rush for me - seeing everyone else's reaction to it - especially the children. I think that's the importance of it...
Must go - have to finish these deals before leaving tomorrow...
K
It was a great day - of course i wish we could have been together - however we will be when i arrive - so looking forward to spending the time with him. Can't wait!
Oh - and I'm definitely going to see the Christo installation in Central Park - that should be amazing. And yes - it's not that exciting - but i think it's the whole idea of going - experiencing the exhibit with everyone else - that's the rush for me - seeing everyone else's reaction to it - especially the children. I think that's the importance of it...
Must go - have to finish these deals before leaving tomorrow...
K
Friday, February 11, 2005
Post-Insomnia - Pre-Spree
It's totally overcast today and i'm tired. Last night was awful. I crawled back under the covers and fell asleep for about 45 minutes - then woke up again - tossed and turned for a half hour and then woke to the sound of my phone ringing (rich) and my alarm going off simultaneously. Spoke with rich for a bit while i dragged myself out of bed. I think my eyes are still at half mast. Yawwwwn. I'm definitely going to leave a bit early - and considering that the office is totally empty (at least the sales area) due to the AT&T Pebble Beach National Pro-Am that is going on in Carmel - i don't think it will be that much of a big deal...
I think i'm going to go to Neiman's on my way home - there are a few things that i need to pick up (marc jacobs, donna karan, michael kors) for my NY trip - and i also want to go to Anthropologie this weekend - they have a darling white (lycra-ish for fit) top with tiny sparkly sequins on it - i think it's called the "starlight tank" - well anyway, it's perfect for layering or under a chic black suit...and their "open horizon skirt" is perfect for the beach - or a summer stroll through central park or sunday brunch at corner bistro - it's flirty and tiered and somewhat spanish in feel - very sexy - meow - another must-have.
There are so many must-haves - aren't there...
One of my newest loves is the earl grey tea candle by skeem - it's decadent - smells incredible - even when not lit...i'm definitely stocking up :)
The marc jacobs key pouch is also something that's on my hit list - sold out at barney's - so i'll have to find it elsewhere. I think i'll check Neiman's while i'm there - yay.
For you naughty kittens out there try the "wink" silk and suede blindfold from www.jimmyjane.com - ultra sexy and a definite must have for anyone who's adventurous - take a peek - it's so not just a blindfold - with over 3 yards of silk - (the asphalt silk sash is my fav) - you're fit to be tied.
Too many beautiful and delicious things - not enough time...
K
I think i'm going to go to Neiman's on my way home - there are a few things that i need to pick up (marc jacobs, donna karan, michael kors) for my NY trip - and i also want to go to Anthropologie this weekend - they have a darling white (lycra-ish for fit) top with tiny sparkly sequins on it - i think it's called the "starlight tank" - well anyway, it's perfect for layering or under a chic black suit...and their "open horizon skirt" is perfect for the beach - or a summer stroll through central park or sunday brunch at corner bistro - it's flirty and tiered and somewhat spanish in feel - very sexy - meow - another must-have.
There are so many must-haves - aren't there...
One of my newest loves is the earl grey tea candle by skeem - it's decadent - smells incredible - even when not lit...i'm definitely stocking up :)
The marc jacobs key pouch is also something that's on my hit list - sold out at barney's - so i'll have to find it elsewhere. I think i'll check Neiman's while i'm there - yay.
For you naughty kittens out there try the "wink" silk and suede blindfold from www.jimmyjane.com - ultra sexy and a definite must have for anyone who's adventurous - take a peek - it's so not just a blindfold - with over 3 yards of silk - (the asphalt silk sash is my fav) - you're fit to be tied.
Too many beautiful and delicious things - not enough time...
K
Insomnia
It's 2:45 am and i can't sleep. Not sure why - i think stress. I tossed in my bed for an hour - until i finally got up - defeated in my attempt to fall back asleep. So frustrating. I'm hoping flipping channels and writing will help me but i'm not sure. We'll see...
Great news at work today - people couldn't be happier with what i'm doing - according to my director i'm a 'huge hit'. He just got back from a 2 day executive management mtg (mind you, that means a half day meeting and a day and a half of golf...) and said that the VPs are thrilled with the work i'm doing - so much so that we're meeting on monday to go over the direction of my role (most likely global) and how we can coordinate all of the 'additional' responsibility that is going to be coming my way. I couldn't be happier - but i also think it's why i may not be sleeping. I'm under a lot of pressure right now - and that's not a bad thing - but i tend to internalize pressure ( i subscribe to the 'never let them see you sweat' form of thought) - so it comes out in other ways - and insomnia is definitely one of them. Lovely. Faaaabulous.
I'm heading to NY on thursday - so excited. I have two deals closing out of the NY office that week so i'll work from there - half days - while i'm in the city. My director wants me to 'shake hands and kiss babies' - haha. I think i can handle that. So looking forward to going - to hitting the museums - to getting my hair done - to seeing friends - to shop - and to spend some very needed time with rich. Thursday can't come quickly enough.
Writing isn't helping at all - i'm wide awake. I am so totally wide awake.
Last night - wednesday (or i suppose 2 nights ago now) - went to dinner with a girlfriend to Chez Nous - darling little french restaurant on Fillmore - it's not heavy french - it's bistro french with little plates and tastes - we had a great time. Ran into an old friend - a girl i used to do charity events with - we exchanged cards and are going to get together for cocktails sometime soon. She was always such a sweetheart - great to reconnect with her.
I think i'm getting tired - i can't really tell - but my eyes are getting heavier and my thoughts are unorganized...i think that's a very good sign. OOh - i just yawned. I'm going to go with this and tip toe off to bed...
Wish me luck.
K
Great news at work today - people couldn't be happier with what i'm doing - according to my director i'm a 'huge hit'. He just got back from a 2 day executive management mtg (mind you, that means a half day meeting and a day and a half of golf...) and said that the VPs are thrilled with the work i'm doing - so much so that we're meeting on monday to go over the direction of my role (most likely global) and how we can coordinate all of the 'additional' responsibility that is going to be coming my way. I couldn't be happier - but i also think it's why i may not be sleeping. I'm under a lot of pressure right now - and that's not a bad thing - but i tend to internalize pressure ( i subscribe to the 'never let them see you sweat' form of thought) - so it comes out in other ways - and insomnia is definitely one of them. Lovely. Faaaabulous.
I'm heading to NY on thursday - so excited. I have two deals closing out of the NY office that week so i'll work from there - half days - while i'm in the city. My director wants me to 'shake hands and kiss babies' - haha. I think i can handle that. So looking forward to going - to hitting the museums - to getting my hair done - to seeing friends - to shop - and to spend some very needed time with rich. Thursday can't come quickly enough.
Writing isn't helping at all - i'm wide awake. I am so totally wide awake.
Last night - wednesday (or i suppose 2 nights ago now) - went to dinner with a girlfriend to Chez Nous - darling little french restaurant on Fillmore - it's not heavy french - it's bistro french with little plates and tastes - we had a great time. Ran into an old friend - a girl i used to do charity events with - we exchanged cards and are going to get together for cocktails sometime soon. She was always such a sweetheart - great to reconnect with her.
I think i'm getting tired - i can't really tell - but my eyes are getting heavier and my thoughts are unorganized...i think that's a very good sign. OOh - i just yawned. I'm going to go with this and tip toe off to bed...
Wish me luck.
K
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Plans and purchases
Newest must-have: the Burberry Cinda bag in traditional check plaid - Love it!
Now that that's off my chest I feel so much better...
Heading to NY next thursday - can't wait - i'm going to stay until the following tuesday now. Plans so far: quiet dinner when i arrive - i'm going to meet with a broker on friday to show me a few of his listings - while it's some months out before i move - i want to establish a relationship with a broker to make sure he knows exactly what i'm looking for - friday night is dinner with friends - saturday is dinner with friends and a party - sunday is SoHo and a museum - monday (day and night) is up in the air...i still have to fit in cocktails with my girlfriend lani and brunch with wendy and her husband...i'm sure it'll all work out. So excited!
Work has been so hectic - even more global deals are getting assigned to me - i'm in the middle of 7 deals right now with 2 more that i know of 'coming my way'. A lot to keep up with - but i love it. Keeps me on my toes.
It's been raining on and off for the past 3 days and while i'm wrapped in cashmere (meow) - i can't escape this chill...i keep hearing - beware the spring-like weather - it's a terrible tease - it's going to get cold again. I know it will - but it's so hard to go back to the cold when we had nearly an entire week of record breaking (20 degrees above normal) temperatures - over 70 in SF last week. It was amazing - and now i'm back to keeping my scarf on all day...oh well.
Having dinner with the family tonight - should be nice - leaving work a tiny bit early to be able to make it up to marin in time. Nothing else terribly exciting to report today - life is pretty seamless right now - moving along perfectly. Can't wait to land in NY and see rich. Miss him very very much.
Must go - K
Oh - and 1 more thing - thank you to 'anonymous' for posting her (i assume) comment about my valentine's day entry - it's very much appreciated and so nice to hear after that nasty email - good to know that there are confident and fun girls out there willing to pull away from the herd (no, i'm not calling you a cow) and be their own person...despite the constant barrage of pink and red that seem to permeate every store we enter these days...
Now that that's off my chest I feel so much better...
Heading to NY next thursday - can't wait - i'm going to stay until the following tuesday now. Plans so far: quiet dinner when i arrive - i'm going to meet with a broker on friday to show me a few of his listings - while it's some months out before i move - i want to establish a relationship with a broker to make sure he knows exactly what i'm looking for - friday night is dinner with friends - saturday is dinner with friends and a party - sunday is SoHo and a museum - monday (day and night) is up in the air...i still have to fit in cocktails with my girlfriend lani and brunch with wendy and her husband...i'm sure it'll all work out. So excited!
Work has been so hectic - even more global deals are getting assigned to me - i'm in the middle of 7 deals right now with 2 more that i know of 'coming my way'. A lot to keep up with - but i love it. Keeps me on my toes.
It's been raining on and off for the past 3 days and while i'm wrapped in cashmere (meow) - i can't escape this chill...i keep hearing - beware the spring-like weather - it's a terrible tease - it's going to get cold again. I know it will - but it's so hard to go back to the cold when we had nearly an entire week of record breaking (20 degrees above normal) temperatures - over 70 in SF last week. It was amazing - and now i'm back to keeping my scarf on all day...oh well.
Having dinner with the family tonight - should be nice - leaving work a tiny bit early to be able to make it up to marin in time. Nothing else terribly exciting to report today - life is pretty seamless right now - moving along perfectly. Can't wait to land in NY and see rich. Miss him very very much.
Must go - K
Oh - and 1 more thing - thank you to 'anonymous' for posting her (i assume) comment about my valentine's day entry - it's very much appreciated and so nice to hear after that nasty email - good to know that there are confident and fun girls out there willing to pull away from the herd (no, i'm not calling you a cow) and be their own person...despite the constant barrage of pink and red that seem to permeate every store we enter these days...
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Valentine's Day - part deux
I got a rather nasty email regarding my Valentine's day post - girls please - don't be so touchy...i obviously hit a nerve with someone - goodness. I was simply saying that it's just a day - and people - especially girls - put such a huge emphasis on it - that to some degree the day loses it's meaning - it's appeal - it's impact - because it's expected - and so much weight is placed on the actions - or lack thereof - of your significant other - that the romantic day that Valentine's day is supposed to be is lost. That this tribute to love (and lust for that matter) is smothered by 'what' someone 'got' you - rather than the thought itself.
Why would you want something that someone didn't wholly want to give you in the first place? OOh - a half-hearted gesture of love...sign me up!
I think i'm just digging a deeper hole, but i'll continue...
Come on girls - buy yourself flowers - and presents - don't wait for someone else to treat you the way you want to be treated - you might be waiting a very long time...I'm tired of consoling my girl friends when something goes wrong - when the boy they're with doesn't fulfill them - well, they have to be fulfilled before they get into a relationship - you can't look for someone to make you whole - you have to do that on your own.
Can you look in the mirror and know, definitively, who you are? Know your worth? Know your own independence? Do you think you're beautiful? Smart? Sexy? The only person who can give you these things is you. You. If you know these things - you know who you are - and if you know who you are - then Valentine's day - and all the trappings that go along with it - doesn't matter - or at least it shouldn't matter 'that' much.
Je suis fini...
K
Oh - and 1 more thing - to the nasty and obviously unhappy girl who sent me that email - perhaps you should consider the fact that you even have a date - let alone a Valentine - present enough. Twit.
Why would you want something that someone didn't wholly want to give you in the first place? OOh - a half-hearted gesture of love...sign me up!
I think i'm just digging a deeper hole, but i'll continue...
Come on girls - buy yourself flowers - and presents - don't wait for someone else to treat you the way you want to be treated - you might be waiting a very long time...I'm tired of consoling my girl friends when something goes wrong - when the boy they're with doesn't fulfill them - well, they have to be fulfilled before they get into a relationship - you can't look for someone to make you whole - you have to do that on your own.
Can you look in the mirror and know, definitively, who you are? Know your worth? Know your own independence? Do you think you're beautiful? Smart? Sexy? The only person who can give you these things is you. You. If you know these things - you know who you are - and if you know who you are - then Valentine's day - and all the trappings that go along with it - doesn't matter - or at least it shouldn't matter 'that' much.
Je suis fini...
K
Oh - and 1 more thing - to the nasty and obviously unhappy girl who sent me that email - perhaps you should consider the fact that you even have a date - let alone a Valentine - present enough. Twit.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Valentine's Day is upon us...
I don't remember Valentine's day last year - i don't even remember if i had a date - i'm assuming i did. I'm actually not a huge fan of the day and all that it entails. I think it's rather forced upon us - love me love me - buy me flowers - tell me how much you care....no thank you.
Now don't get me wrong i love flowers - and have done the floral design for several friends weddings, cocktail parties, charity events, dinner parties etc, so i understand the value of a gorgeous arrangement - of what a single blooming branch can do for an otherwise uninteresting room - of what a crystal vase overflowing with calla's can do for an entryway - of what a french ribbon-bound nosegay of peonies can do to put an unending smile upon - well - my face - i adore flowers and always surround myself with them - not to mention the gorgeous bouquets that rich sends me - so lovely...
But the idea of Valentine's day - it just seems that if someone loves you - and wants to show that love - then they should do so all the time - freely - rather than feeling the obligation of doing so on Valentine's day - which i don't necessarily think honors the idea of love in the first place. If someone you love - gives you something out of obligation - rather than from their heart - then it's totally void of any sort of romantic notion. I don't need for rich to buy me chocolates, roses, gifts and to take me to dinner to know that he loves me - he shows me that in numerous ways every single day. If he wants to do those things - then that is fine - but i don't expect it and i certainly don't think it's something i'm 'due'...
He surprises me all the time - with little things - and that is so much more interesting than 1 grand gesture predicated upon a day in february.
With rampant disappointment, girls sigh and cry and bemoan the boys they're with...the gift isn't perfect, the roses aren't a blooming crimson, the dinner wasn't romantic or intimate enough. I know it's important to some girls - probably most girls - but i suppose it would be to me as well if i based my relationships on what was given to me - and when - by the boy i was seeing - rather than that boy himself.
To each his/her own - each holiday is different - i remember several years ago - i believe it was around my birthday - and i was anticipating my ex (then boyfriend) of taking me to dinner. Mind you - at that same time i was planning my sisters wedding (i swear - it rivaled Princess Di's), chairing one of the largest charity balls in san francisco, planning a succession of 5 elaborate events for the president of Toyota and handling all the responsibility that my job as the catering director at one of san francisco's 5 stars entailed. Needless to say i was busy. Very busy. However he kept calling me - asking me where i wanted to go - did i want anyone to join us - what time i thought was best - and i ended up yelling at him that considering i planned events for a living - could he possibly handle this on his own - could he take this one thing off my plate...his response was that i did it so much better...lovely. To me - that was a disappointment - not because he didn't plan it - but because i had to - and honestly, it took me all of 5 minutes to pull that dinner together - but again, i had to...
I understand Valentine's day - but i'm still not a fan. The idea that someone was to give me something out of condition or requirement rather than from his heart...it simply takes everything that away from the gift and taints it. Appreciate the unexpected - it makes life more interesting...
Now don't get me wrong i love flowers - and have done the floral design for several friends weddings, cocktail parties, charity events, dinner parties etc, so i understand the value of a gorgeous arrangement - of what a single blooming branch can do for an otherwise uninteresting room - of what a crystal vase overflowing with calla's can do for an entryway - of what a french ribbon-bound nosegay of peonies can do to put an unending smile upon - well - my face - i adore flowers and always surround myself with them - not to mention the gorgeous bouquets that rich sends me - so lovely...
But the idea of Valentine's day - it just seems that if someone loves you - and wants to show that love - then they should do so all the time - freely - rather than feeling the obligation of doing so on Valentine's day - which i don't necessarily think honors the idea of love in the first place. If someone you love - gives you something out of obligation - rather than from their heart - then it's totally void of any sort of romantic notion. I don't need for rich to buy me chocolates, roses, gifts and to take me to dinner to know that he loves me - he shows me that in numerous ways every single day. If he wants to do those things - then that is fine - but i don't expect it and i certainly don't think it's something i'm 'due'...
He surprises me all the time - with little things - and that is so much more interesting than 1 grand gesture predicated upon a day in february.
With rampant disappointment, girls sigh and cry and bemoan the boys they're with...the gift isn't perfect, the roses aren't a blooming crimson, the dinner wasn't romantic or intimate enough. I know it's important to some girls - probably most girls - but i suppose it would be to me as well if i based my relationships on what was given to me - and when - by the boy i was seeing - rather than that boy himself.
To each his/her own - each holiday is different - i remember several years ago - i believe it was around my birthday - and i was anticipating my ex (then boyfriend) of taking me to dinner. Mind you - at that same time i was planning my sisters wedding (i swear - it rivaled Princess Di's), chairing one of the largest charity balls in san francisco, planning a succession of 5 elaborate events for the president of Toyota and handling all the responsibility that my job as the catering director at one of san francisco's 5 stars entailed. Needless to say i was busy. Very busy. However he kept calling me - asking me where i wanted to go - did i want anyone to join us - what time i thought was best - and i ended up yelling at him that considering i planned events for a living - could he possibly handle this on his own - could he take this one thing off my plate...his response was that i did it so much better...lovely. To me - that was a disappointment - not because he didn't plan it - but because i had to - and honestly, it took me all of 5 minutes to pull that dinner together - but again, i had to...
I understand Valentine's day - but i'm still not a fan. The idea that someone was to give me something out of condition or requirement rather than from his heart...it simply takes everything that away from the gift and taints it. Appreciate the unexpected - it makes life more interesting...
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